And I enjoy the Book - Safe People by Henry Cloud and John Townsend. Why on earth am i writing this? I think that I'm filling in time - time I don't have. I should be running off to the store to buy chips for the evening. But I don't want to do that. I just want to have time for myself. Unfortunately, it isn't good if we don't have chips. Tonight is The Harbour, which is pretty cool. It's a support group. I am program director and there are others. I am also very much an attender of the group.
I don't know what to do with my feelings when people I know are in dire consequences. I find it difficult to process their difficulties and their ultimate demise. One person that has been lost to our community here at my workplace/church is Brian Keeper. Brian wasn't part of The Harbour, but he was part of the Church where The Harbour meets.
I think that he was a brilliant man who had great difficulty with difficulties. My heart ached greatly when I found out that Brian had passed on. I wrestled with not having the exact details of his death; I wrestled with not knowing what to do with my tears. I wrestled with the fact that... I wasn't prepared for this. Right before Brian's passing - about a week - I talked to Brian at the door. He was in one of his drugged fuelled rages - and I managed to tell him that I hoped that he would get through this, that he would be okay. I told him I was afraid for him, and that I wanted him to have a long healthy life. Strange I wasn't prepared for this you know. Just earlier - a year or so ago - we lost someone else dear to us - us meaning our community here on Main & Sutherland in Winnipeg, so very dear to me also...
Here is a song "You Have Made Me Glad " by Hillsong, sung by a friend... Barbara Young who sings at The Harbour.