swimming around skeleton fisherman

fish are interesting
people

fish don't think
it's necessary

to act like someone
they are not

they don't
think they need
to pretend to care...

but i like to
think they care
without
having to be
rewarded
for that

i think
that I'm
not far
from their
world

swimming amongst
plastic reefs

swimming beside
skeleton fisherman

connecting with those
that connect with me

i think that fish
are independent
thinkers

independent
swimmers

introverted

but choosing
to choose

other fish
like them

i think they're
content

to be
who they are

quite happy
to not
be bound

to the
unnecessary expectations
of others

but having
the heart
to care
for other fish

without the
false reward
of applause

i'm content
in my
fishtank

with the
plastic reefs
and
skeleton fisherman

System Of A Down - Lonely Day

cause they don't have any feelings

Something In The Way

by Nirvana

Underneath the bridge
The tarp has sprung a leak
And the animals Ive trapped
Have all become my pets
And Im living off of grass
And the drippings from the ceiling
Its okay to eat fish
cause they dont have any feelings

Something in the way, mmm
Something in the way, yeah, mmm

Underneath the bridge
The tarp has sprung a leak
And the animals Ive trapped
Have all become my pets
And Im living off of grass
And the drippings from the ceiling
Its okay to eat fish
cause they dont have any feelings

something in the way, mmm
Something in the way, yeah, mmm

Billy Idol - Eyes Without a Face

apparently the images are disturbing... depends what your disturbance meter is I guess! I just happen to like the Lyrics. And I kind of like Billy Idol too!

September is almost over

Then Peter, filled with the Holy Spirit, said to them. "Leaders and elders of our nation, are we being questioned because we've done a good deed for a crippled man? Do you want t know how he was healed? Let me clearly state to you and to all the people of Israel that he was healed in the name and power of Jesus Christ from Nazareth... Acts 4:8b - 10a.

Drove into Calgary yesterday with my friend Lisa. We're staying at the Travellers Inn. It has Wireless Internet - yay! Lisa's using my HP Notebook and I'm using my Dell work Notebook. the adventure has been really fun so far. We leave Monday morning for Winnipeg. Our plan is to visit her dad (and her brother). I've been writing in my journal - well just places we've stopped and things we've seen --- like when the railroad man waved back when I had Mickey Mouse waving at him. That was 1:50 pm yesterday after the Moose Jaw 27 sign on HWY #1 West.

Listened to CD's all along the way - due to lack of Radio signal. Veggie Tales, The Doors, Creed, Radio - Colin James, Breath 22(song) etc, Aero Smith, Carrie Underwood...

Work has been a mess all summer. Two people resigned amidst the mess. I've continued, of course, walked in everyday and sat at my desk and worked like crazy. Buried myself in my work. I've gone for walks during lunch times... isolation is often preferable. But I'm not one to give up. I prefer to face things head on and move forward.





just imagine...

The Proclaimers-Sunshine On Leith Full LengthVideo

Facebook Song

A Facebook Song

Out of Gas on a cold day last February.

broken earth

"And when Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, he gave up his spirit.
At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. The earth shook and the rocks split. The tombs broke open and the bodies of many holy people who had died were raised to life. They came out of the tombs, and after Jesus' resurrection they went into the holy city and appeared to many people. When the centurion and those with him who were guarding Jesus saw the earthquake and all that had happened, they were terrified, and exclaimed, "Surely he was the Son of God!"

Matthew 27: 50 - 54 (The Bible)

It's Friday. Today was my day off, but I went to work - to work on the Media part of the upcoming weekend service. During lunch time, my co-workers and I got into a conversation about things in the Bible. Things stated in various scripture passages, that are not explained or alluded to again. I mentioned that I'm curious about the dead people who walked out of their tombs. Dead people who were raised to life during the earthquake that happened after Jesus' crucifixion. I guess I could pick apart the passage - what they call an exegesis (an explanation or critical interpretation of the Bible). But I'm not too interested in doing that. I'm not a scholar, and not just that - life's too short to be so concerned about something that just isn't mentioned again. Or at least today is too short... But I do wonder, about those dead people who walked out of their tombs. What were their first thoughts? Did they suddenly realize that they were now alive? Or did they not realize that they had been dead in the first place? And what did the community around them think of such a thing? I imagine that even though the community was still immersed in the trauma of the current crucifixion (Jesus' death), that they would have noticed the dead people walking out of the broken earth. Crucifixion was common back then - it was the current form of execution at the time. What wasn't a common occurance, was the earth quake that resulted right after the crucifixion of Jesus Christ. Back to the dead people --- if it happened today, would they hike off to the first 7-Eleven they could find to buy coffee and a banana-chocolate-chip muffin? Scripture states that they were holy people. So maybe that means that they wouldn't purchase cigarettes at the same time - okay so now I'm getting ridiculous... but possibly you get the drift.

beth_creative

I was having some fun with the Google Logo...

Scribbled Meanderings

"But if you agree, you have to go the next step. If only the minority can say, 'It is against our conscience to fight because we must love enemies as well as friends,' and the majority must say, 'We must fight to protect pacifists so that they may have the right to think as they do,' then the majority, the non believers, may live. Who then is the martyr for the faith?" page 46, Peace Shall Destroy Many by Rudy Wiebe. I used to live in a small town where the majority spoke of Pacifism as the only way of life. That war was wrong and not necessary, and that only the non-believers would fight in a war. I remember one Remembrance Day time when one of the Pastors of that town was quoted in the local Newspaper as saying that "only the 'worldly' would fight in a war, and that certainly a Christian would not take up arms." Not that I personally 'believed' in war, but I remember the comments surrounding the duty of soldiers to be especially shallow. And I remember a few people talking about the author of this book - Rudy Wiebe. It seems that his book Peace Shall Destroy Many stirred alot of controversy. But sometimes that controversy is good for us, isn't it? Even though it 'gets us going' so to speak. Rudy Wiebe risked alot when he wrote that book. Many in his community turned against him - and I don't mean his town, but his fellow church people from across Canada that turned against him. Some felt that he had spoken out on a subject that should have been best kept silent. Interesting how a book that stirs the hearts of people and causes the otherwise compliant to think deeper turns out to be a best seller. I'm not sure why I love to read so much, but I do know that I'm not afraid of being challenged by someone else's scribbled meanderings. I borrowed a book to a friend today Emotional Intelligence by Daniel Goleman. Interesting how I felt a sudden trace of misgiving as I handed the book to his dad. Part of that though was because I had underlined various parts of it. One of the areas that stirred controversy in that book was where Goleman spoke of cognitive reframing, or seeing things differently, as a way of lifting oneself out of depression. Certainly a sensitive topic. I was given the book as a gift in 1998 when I was taking some courses in Family Studies and Psychology. A few friends questioned later on my reasons for taking those courses - they were curious why I would bother with it when I wasn't following a specific course of study. I tend to remain distant at those times... how do you explain to someone that you enjoy challenges that seem beyond their comprehension of a good time? Possibly they were concerned because of my personal battles with depression. At that point I found their concern a curious thing. I wondered if they were actually apprehensive of what they may discover about themselves. Critical thinking is a good thing, but not necessarily comfortable I suppose. And maybe I don't necessarily appear to think critically because I don't run around espounding the latest scribbled meanderings that I've read. Maybe I prefer to remain silent in order to confuse the curious.